Trying my best to work on my ncis_bigbang fic. Which is due in, like, two weeks. Minimum word count: 20K.

I am not inspired.

The Muses are not cooperating.

It's like pulling teeth, for crissakes!

I've finally managed to pass the 2,000 words mark. In other words: TWO THOUSAND. That's ten friggin' percent of what I need. *headdesk*

What makes this worse is the fact that I've got tons of plotbunnies biting me, and they would all be so damn easy to write! I'm inspired to work on at least three of them. Right now. On the spot. Without even having to think about the story. I'd just start and hammer it all out and be done in a couple of hours, I swear!

But I've got the damn deadline, I've got the damn word count, and I've got a story idea that is so damn close to my heart that I really want to do it justice, and so I'm freaking at the mere idea of it not coming out the way I want, and that's exactly what's happening because the Muses are off doing something else and I'm second guessing myself and ARGH.

Or maybe it's just the fact that after writing two bigbang fics within weeks, I'm all written out and panic at the mere idea of tackling another epic (as opposed to the little ficlets that I am inspired to write).

Or maybe it's the fact that I worked 10+ hours every single day this past week and so all I want to do is spend the weekend vegging out on the couch.

Whatever the reason, I'm frustrated. The venting helped a little. Still not feeling inspired though. LOL! Sigh.